Why do I do this? I ran ahead of God again. And it cost me a couple hundred dollars for a hotel stay. He pointed it out to me a couple of days ago, but the hotel stay was non-refundable. Now what do I do?
So I asked Him: “What do I do now?” He gave me permission to come here anyway. When I got here I continued petitioning the Lord for permission to act as His Secret Weapon here. His response was to tell me to fast. So I’m fasting. Honestly, I don’t know if this is going to win me the permission that I want, but it does make me feel better about having run ahead of Him again.
The thing is that God has been really sweet and gentle with me over this. I’ve been the only one beating myself up. After checking in, I opened my Bible to this:
I have sworn not to be angry with you, never to rebuke you again, (Isaiah 54:9, NIV).
I get angry with myself over this because I should know better. I spend time every day with the Lord in prayer and Bible reading, and it’s not like I don’t know how to hear from Him. But sometimes, as in this case, I let the meat between my ears tell me what to do, rather than simply going to God and asking that question: should I go where my friends suggested that I go.
I really enjoy my work as God’s Secret Weapon. I got wonderful confirmation just the other day about what I did in Boston. I was listening to an old Derek Prince sermon on YouTube, and he said that the principality spirits for six American cities had been identified:
Hollywood – Sensuality
Reno – Breakup of the Home
New Orleans – Witchcraft
Chicago – Violence
Miami – Political Confusion
Boston – False Religion
In Boston the Lord had me rebuke the heresy of Christian Science (see Called to Rebuke). I had gone there not even knowing that their headquarters was there, nor that Boston’s principality spirit had been identified as false religion.
You’ll notice that Miami’s principality spirit is political confusion. This sermon pre-dates the “hanging chad” fiasco of the 2000 election.
On the way here I was pondering these cities, and asking the Lord questions, like why is Reno the breakup of the home spirit, and not Las Vegas? The Lord said that Las Vegas’ principality spirit is organized crime. He also told me that New York’s is mammon (money). And Houston’s is human trafficking. I was just in Houston yesterday, and my cousin had pointed out that the house across the street from his is for sale because it had been used as a base for a human trafficking operation. He said that they had found some of the girls, but failed to catch the traffickers.
As of this moment, I don’t know if I’ll be allowed to do Secret Weapon work here tomorrow or not. The only thing I do know is that if I go out there without God’s covering, I would be putting myself and possibly my family and friends at great risk. So I fast, I wait, and I seek the Lord. Whatever His answer is, I know that it will be the right answer.
Stay tuned! I’ll let you know as soon as I know. God is good!